She acted very gently. It took a long time for us to get to the lovemaking stage and she really wanted to be with me, but I had to deal with the trauma of past abuse...
A girl I used to know assaulted me. I told her to stop but she wouldn't and she said I had the signs of someone who wanted it. I couldn't help it and I couldn't stop her. It left me hurt and very much untrusting.
After some time I let a gentle girl get close to me. She wanted to get closer and it was then I had to share my story. She was very understanding and loving and said she wouldn't go too far with me unless I was ready.
This night came where I was ready and I wanted her to do things to me. I told her my desires and asked her to be gentle. She was extremely considerate, but I could see the longing and desperation in her eyes to be with me all the way. It was scary but her touch was something I wanted so much too.
When my body reacted in the way it does when it's ready for lovemaking, I saw the colour in her face change to one consumed with desire. She noticed my discomfort and made soothing noises with her mouth in my ear. I closed my eyes and eventually I let her take me in.
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