828 A Diary Entry for my Younger Self to Find Somehow

I found a bunch of my old diaries one day and had a big long read. A lot of stuff came back an one thing that was a running theme through my early life was how much I wanted a girlfriend.

Things were a little different now and I did have girlfriends, but they were nothing like the kind of girls I dreamed of meeting back then. I remember wanting a girl I could chat with forever and someone who had long beautiful hair.

Why did I settle for shallow short-haired egomaniacs with whom I didn't have anything in common? Then I remembered that I settled and convinced myself that it wouldn't get any better so I might as well make do.

I shifted my focus, I started thinking about myself more and my own self-esteem. The girls I was hanging with suddenly disappeared and I was shocked at how fast they left. Finding a girl I always wanted to meet took time but I finally met her.

I only wish I could write a diary that my younger self could find, so he could know that everything will be okay... and not to lose focus and end up going for crappy people who don't value him.